*sigh* All I can report is that there is nothing to report. My husband flew to the corporate headquarters and spent today meeting with a number of people at the company. Although it sounds like it went well, all we know is that the company needs to consider their next step, and the head of the department will be out for the long holiday weekend, so we won't hear anything until next week. Again.
This is all just very frustrating. I am excited about the possibility of moving, but it's also very disconcerting for something this important to be so out of my control. Maybe if the knowledge that we were moving was all that was coming, it would be a little easier to wait. But the fact is, once we determine that we're moving, a whole list of things I have to do pops up. First of all, I will have to give notice at my school. I'll have to pack up everything in my classroom and say goodbye to my coworkers. Then there's the question of what I'll be doing wherever we end up living. Unless we were to make the decision that it's time to try and get pregnant (resulting in my staying home), I'll need to find a teaching job. That means applying for certification in whatever state we're in, and then applying for jobs. So once my husband's employment is decided, the rest of my world will be up in the air.
It's hard for me to accept that so much of my life is out of my control right now. I don't like being out of control.
Apparently, the limbo is just beginning...
Pool Time
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Day 176 - 6/25/09
Weigh-in: 198.2
Slowly. Very slowly.
I was reading an article online about celebrities who lose their pregnancy weight very quickly. A number of people complain about magazines posting such stories, titled things like "50 lbs in 6 wks! How DID she do it?!" Because it's rarely weight lost in a normal-person way. Instead, the celebrities get trainers and chefs on their staff to take control of the diet and exercise. They can afford to spend both the money and the time each day to nothing but working out. Then they appear in public six or eight weeks after the delivery, looking fabulous, so that the paparazzi can take photos and write stories titled "She lost the weight in 6 weeks! Read how!"
Anyway, I found it entertaining--I looked up an article that gave away the "secrets" of such skinny people as Uma Thurman and Debra Messing. At least Messing's "secret" was a normal-person move: she just breastfed. A lot. Not, since she's got a superskinny frame anyway, I'm sure she has a better than average metabolism to help her out. But still. The best part of the article was at the end, when the author decided to state that losing the baby weight takes time. "Remember, it took nine months to put it on." Great. It's taken me eleven years to put my current weight on; is it going to take that long to remove? Crap.
Slowly. Very slowly.
I was reading an article online about celebrities who lose their pregnancy weight very quickly. A number of people complain about magazines posting such stories, titled things like "50 lbs in 6 wks! How DID she do it?!" Because it's rarely weight lost in a normal-person way. Instead, the celebrities get trainers and chefs on their staff to take control of the diet and exercise. They can afford to spend both the money and the time each day to nothing but working out. Then they appear in public six or eight weeks after the delivery, looking fabulous, so that the paparazzi can take photos and write stories titled "She lost the weight in 6 weeks! Read how!"
Anyway, I found it entertaining--I looked up an article that gave away the "secrets" of such skinny people as Uma Thurman and Debra Messing. At least Messing's "secret" was a normal-person move: she just breastfed. A lot. Not, since she's got a superskinny frame anyway, I'm sure she has a better than average metabolism to help her out. But still. The best part of the article was at the end, when the author decided to state that losing the baby weight takes time. "Remember, it took nine months to put it on." Great. It's taken me eleven years to put my current weight on; is it going to take that long to remove? Crap.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Day 174 - 6/23/09
Weigh-in: 199.2
Yeah, I know. At the beginning of the summer, I had such high hopes. I was going to work out a lot, watch what I ate, and enjoy some weight loss. Instead, I'm still sitting about the same place I've been for...I have no idea how long. Sad.
The first couple of weeks of the summer, I was doing pretty well. Then I let myself slack off for a variety of reasons, and I just haven't been able to get myself going again.
Part of it is my own usual slacker issues. This is certainly not a new problem. But it has been severely compounded by this state of limbo that we are in (see previous post). Since that post, where my husband had five interviews, there has been a sixth. And now, the company is flying him out to their corporate headquarters in North Dakota to spend the day interviewing face to face with...pretty much everybody, it sounds like. This is supposed to take place one week from today. So, while this certainly sounds like they are offering him the job, we have no details at all yet, and we're still in a state of limbo.
Needless to say, this makes it very difficult to convince myself to do any kind of school-related work whatsoever. But it also is making it hard for me to do anything else. Clean the house? Why, if we'll have to clean it again when we move everything? Rearrange the cabinets? Why, if we're just going to have to take everything out to pack? Go through the closets? Why, if we're just going to have to do it again when we pack up?
My husband makes a good point, that going through the stuff now might make it easier to pack it up when we need to. But it's not making it any easier to get myself going.
I was never very good at limbo.
Yeah, I know. At the beginning of the summer, I had such high hopes. I was going to work out a lot, watch what I ate, and enjoy some weight loss. Instead, I'm still sitting about the same place I've been for...I have no idea how long. Sad.
The first couple of weeks of the summer, I was doing pretty well. Then I let myself slack off for a variety of reasons, and I just haven't been able to get myself going again.
Part of it is my own usual slacker issues. This is certainly not a new problem. But it has been severely compounded by this state of limbo that we are in (see previous post). Since that post, where my husband had five interviews, there has been a sixth. And now, the company is flying him out to their corporate headquarters in North Dakota to spend the day interviewing face to face with...pretty much everybody, it sounds like. This is supposed to take place one week from today. So, while this certainly sounds like they are offering him the job, we have no details at all yet, and we're still in a state of limbo.
Needless to say, this makes it very difficult to convince myself to do any kind of school-related work whatsoever. But it also is making it hard for me to do anything else. Clean the house? Why, if we'll have to clean it again when we move everything? Rearrange the cabinets? Why, if we're just going to have to take everything out to pack? Go through the closets? Why, if we're just going to have to do it again when we pack up?
My husband makes a good point, that going through the stuff now might make it easier to pack it up when we need to. But it's not making it any easier to get myself going.
I was never very good at limbo.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Day 160 - 6/9/09
Didn't weigh in today either. Retaining water because of the TOTM and out of my blood pressure medication, so I'm sure the weigh-in wouldn't be accurate. The good news was that yesterday I took my blood pressure after a whole weekend of not taking my medication, and it wasn't too bad. 127/86. To be really good, it should have been below 120 and 80, but still, it wasn't half bad. I really should go to the gym, but I'm a bit crampy and lacking the motivation. Maybe I'll go on a bike ride this afternoon.
I feel a little "caught in limbo", as it were, and it's contributing my lack of enthusiasm for the to-do list. You see, my husband has had five interviews with a company in another state, and we're waiting for any news about whether or not they're going to offer him a job, and what the salary might be if they do. We've lived in the south now for eleven years, and that's after we only really intended to live here for two or three years while my husband went to school. We never meant to stay here this long. The south has never really felt like home, but no real opportunities have really presented themselves, and we've been relatively pleased with our jobs, so we've just kind of stayed here. Anyway, recently my husband has grown unhappy with his job, and he started pursuing other employment. He's interviewed with several companies in several different states, but nothing has come of it. This one job, however, seems it would the likely to produce an offer. I mean, you wouldn't think they'd waste five whole interviews if they weren't interested in him. But it remains to be seen if they really will offer him and job, and if it will be the kind of salary we'll accept (needs to be at least the same as what he currently makes).
All the stuff on my to-do list either has to do with school next fall or with the maintenance of our house (rental). I'm finding it hard to motivate myself to do any work on either thing, since if we move it would all be moot anyway. So I'm just kind of sitting around the house, not doing anything. Not good. I just wish we'd hear something.
NOTE: Not too long after I posted, my husband forwarded an e-mail to me that had come from the company he interviewed with. Basically, it just said that the guy who is making the hiring decision is out of the office this week and next, and so won't make any decisions until he is back in the office. That means the earliest we'd hear anything would be next Friday. *sigh*
I feel a little "caught in limbo", as it were, and it's contributing my lack of enthusiasm for the to-do list. You see, my husband has had five interviews with a company in another state, and we're waiting for any news about whether or not they're going to offer him a job, and what the salary might be if they do. We've lived in the south now for eleven years, and that's after we only really intended to live here for two or three years while my husband went to school. We never meant to stay here this long. The south has never really felt like home, but no real opportunities have really presented themselves, and we've been relatively pleased with our jobs, so we've just kind of stayed here. Anyway, recently my husband has grown unhappy with his job, and he started pursuing other employment. He's interviewed with several companies in several different states, but nothing has come of it. This one job, however, seems it would the likely to produce an offer. I mean, you wouldn't think they'd waste five whole interviews if they weren't interested in him. But it remains to be seen if they really will offer him and job, and if it will be the kind of salary we'll accept (needs to be at least the same as what he currently makes).
All the stuff on my to-do list either has to do with school next fall or with the maintenance of our house (rental). I'm finding it hard to motivate myself to do any work on either thing, since if we move it would all be moot anyway. So I'm just kind of sitting around the house, not doing anything. Not good. I just wish we'd hear something.
NOTE: Not too long after I posted, my husband forwarded an e-mail to me that had come from the company he interviewed with. Basically, it just said that the guy who is making the hiring decision is out of the office this week and next, and so won't make any decisions until he is back in the office. That means the earliest we'd hear anything would be next Friday. *sigh*
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